Sammi's profilex___ R a n d o m.... Yet...PhotosBlogListsMore  |  Tools Help |
|
8/31/2006 So they all know..... About the pubes.
Today was shit. It was Thursday today wasn't it?
Yes it was. I got up early this morning at 6.45 to do homework. But I fell
asleep again. English first, which is never a good start to a day. Because I
fall asleep and then it feels like bedtime. Anyway, essay is now for next
Friday, so that gives me tonight to sleep. Otherwise I would have been up all
night.
Chemistry, we didn't do an awful lot, Mr Jamil -
Too much talk and too little action. I still don't get his silly calculations
and stuff. Meh. Probably never will. Double biology was pretty boring, we did
the results to an experiment that went so wrong it was off the scale. Why on
earth are we recording it?
And maths, I got out of to go and see my 'Buddy'
who is called Lynn, and she's the cutest 'lil thing! I think Buddying is going
to be fun! We missed the first period of maths, which was probably bad because I
haven't a damn clue what I'm doing. >.< Actually did ZILCH work. Talked
about pubes and stuff. The usual intellectual conversation which of course has a
great relevance to maths.
Ended up walking home myself again. It's just gonna
stay that way. Noone gives a shit or wants to acknowledge I exist. So fuck 'em.
I shall walk home with James Blunt and Panic! At The Disco. And who wins
there?
I got in and started on the maths homework.
"Exercise 4 and the next exercise" I was told. So I spent 5 fucking hours doing
work I DIDN'T NEED TO DO! Fucking cow that told me that. I am going to blow her
up with sodium and hydrochloric acid. You just watch me. I'm now going to be up
later than I'd like to be, doing work that could have been done in that 5 hours
that I wasted doing work I wasn't supposed to know how to do!
Fucking shite. And Mark has deleted me. And I need
to speak to him. He's also blocked me. What do I do wrong in this world?
Seriously..
Sammi 8/30/2006 FOUR!Today was meant to be good. Because... Well because it just was. Maths turned out good. Had a nice little GOSSIP with Cole. About pubes and the like. Perfectly normal conversation. Didn't do an awful lot of work. Computing was crap, we had Mrs Blonde-Frizzy-Hair. I have no idea what her name is. But she's boring. And computing was boring.
English... I must have fallen asleep again. I think she just talked and we just slept. As usual. Effing essay for Friday. And Chemistry Rachel wasn't here again, so the experiments worked. Lol, Rachel you are a curse!
I stayed in school for lunch today and gossiped with Cole. It was quite boring, and the person we were gossiping about kept popping up. No, not like a penis. Like a... party popper.
PD. Oh what shite. Sat and listend to him for an hour, then sat and watched Nicole play Tetris for an hour. Wow fun. Educational? Yea, I was going to walk home with David's friends, but I was ignored so I walked myself. I'm just going to walk myself from now on. I hate my life.
There was these three people who I thought were there for me. One just admitted he's lied to me for ages and I'm actually not his 'best friend' at all. Which hurt a hell of a lot, because it meant so much to me for someone to consider me their best friend again. One appears to have disappeared off the face of the internet and hasn't replied to my emails. I have one person. One. And if I didn't have that one person, I'd be dead by now. Dave - I love you. <3 8/29/2006 HappinessToday was okay. Started with computing. And we had
Mrs T. And she was trying to explain to us why ASCII allows 256 different
characters (which is doesn't, it allowed 128) and she argues with us for most of
the period before finally admitting she'd got it wrong. Talk about confusing.
The class understood binary and ASCII before she messed us up. I miss Mr Q. He
makes me understand things. =[
Chemistry. Oh, Rachel was off because of the hike,
and we did this experiment, and it worked! Experiments NEVER work for us! So
I'ma thinking it might be just a big bit of a coincidence that the experiment
works on the ONE day she's off. Hmmm... I don't actually remember what the heck
else we did in Chemistry. I wrote FLORIDA in my diary, and coloured it in. ooh
clever me.
And maths. With that little weird teacher again.
Was pretty boring. But it's revision so at least it's easy. Then she goes and
busts my bubble to tell me that we're moving on to new content next week. But
Miiiisssss! Tuesdays were the only day with out hard maths work. =[ PSE. Was utterly stupid, played this utterly stupid game which
was utterly stupid. And the loud Neds get ticks. The quiet normal people get
crosses. Why is that? Urg.
Double English. We started with note-taking. And
those questions got marked. That I spent yonky doodles on! But she seemed to
like my long -winded answers :) Then we were meant to be doing some kind of
character thing. But Jennifer distracted me by drawing a cupcake that looked
like a penis. OMG how immature are we?! A CUPCAKE!? What the hell cupcake looks
like a penis? In fact, more to the point, what the hell penis looks like a
cupcake. Ooh... Cupcakes... Mmmm... I cannot stay
concentrated!
It's my parents anniversary tomorrow. And seeing as
still not on speaking terms with them, I was in a bit of a dilemma. So Ben and I
made them a card with tonnes of glitter and feathers and stuff. A big sticky
sparkly MESS! But hopefully they will see the humour and talk to me. And not
want me to go away to America and not come back. =[
I'm gonna write this damn essay tonight. I will I
will!
I need to speak to two very different people for
two very different reasons. Hannah, and Justin. (Sorry, just reminding myself of
that.)
Sammi 8/28/2006 ...Today actually wasn't SO bad. I was in double computing first. I love computing so I guess that started the day well. Mr Q was off (Monday morning syndrome?) so we pretty much got to do our own thing. I've realised I'd rather do my own thing than be TAUGHT things. For some reason I take things in better on my own. Oh, we had Mr C for the second period. Why the heck they put a PE teacher in a Computing class I don't know. Must be short-staffed!
We voted for prefects today. There wasn't an awful lot of choice. Zoe, myself, Hannah, Nicole and Laura. It's just a popularity contest so it was pretty much decided before it started kind of thing. Of course there's people who think they're popular and everyone loves them, they're usually disappointed. It's stupid. They make you fill out a long form to 'apply' for prefect. So myself (and Nicole) spent ages making this form great, well filled-out and written to impress. The neds write one-word answers and get to be prefects. Pretty dumb if you ask me. What's the point of the form?
Double Biology was pretty shite today. We had to do some experiment about cutting up potato and putting it in sugar. Stupid. Noone's worked how it was supposed to. I hate doing practical work. Experiments never work and noone ever learns anything. I'd rather write thank very much. There's not any progress on the Biology class front. It seems we're staying in that class with that teacher for the year, unless something else is sorted out. I'm happy.
English was boring. Yes we're learning how to do close-reading all over again. I'm good at close reading usually. Higher has big-mark questions though. Ooer scary stuff. Mrs S is such a boring teacher. And maths was very very... Quiet. Because Nicole wasn't there! She's away hiking up mountains. Crazy lass. Might have actually done some work, resulting in me not having much homework. Not much at all today. Just that one bit of maths. I need to do that English essay though.
I'm cold. I want a cuddle. Please?
Sammi
I'd love to say I want a white mansion with blue shutters, I want a Mercedes, I want to be a pop star. But all I want is to be happy. You guys have it easy.. 8/27/2006 TomorrowIs Monday. And I hate school. But two days..
Today was pretty crappy. Lay in for a bit, then got
up and tidied a bit. Actually I tidied the whole kitchen. Then got shouted at.
Stupid. I can't be doing with this shouting at me every time I move. I can't
wait to get out of this place, I really can't.
We went out for dinner with the Grandparents. Yeah
so they're all interested in school and such. We showed them the Florida pics.
That I took. But yeah I just shut up don't I. We went to Chardonnay and it was
good food as always.
Can't wait 'til Wednesday. Really can't. I won't
say why. Some people know why. I'm going to be happy on Wednesday. Wednesday is
going to be good. It's going to be good. It is.
This English essay. It's meant to be a discursive
essay. I don't know what to do it on... I have three possibles - Animal
testing, Euthanasia, and same-sex marriages. I think I'll do same-sex marriages,
I've done animal testing before, so it would be nice to research something
different. And I have a feeling euthanasia would be confusing because I don't
know what my opinion is on it. But I'm all for the same-sex
marriages.
Sammi 8/26/2006 I thinkI've found a new love for weekends. No school!
Woot! Had a nice lie-in and then Rob came over and we did maths homework. Yay!
Actually yes this was a novelty for me. Speaking to someone without having
someone else glaring at me. It's nice. Thanks for coming over Rob. =]
Then I cleaned the house a bit, and did some work
on the site www.graphixperts.com to
change the way the form works. (Or doesn't work, haha.) Yes that needs fixed.
But I'm sick of it. So it can stay broke for now. And changed the gallery. It's
now categorised.
Then I got in shit with the parents. Because the
dishwasher wasn't working, and I pointed this out and got completely yelled at.
I was told (and I quote) to "fuck off and don't come back". Nice eh? What my
Father doesn't realise is that I AM going to fuck off and he won't have to deal
with me being there anymore. I just have to finish school.
So I'm stuck in my room, because I dare not go out
or he will yell at me. Dogs life eh? I have a headache and I want a shower. But
this is me 'fucked off'. So I better just shut up. I'm going to finish the
maths homework tonight and start my English essay, which I'm doing on homosexual
rights.
I really feel like shite right now.
Sammi 8/25/2006 Friday At LastGod am I glad it's Friday. This week has been utter
shit and has felt like it would never end. Today was boring. Starting with a
very boring assembly. Where I found out that reports come out on the 6th of
October. I go to Florida on the 5th. What a shame, I miss reports! No great loss
there!
Umm chemistry was boring, we actually didn't mess
up any experiments today. Okay maybe that's because we didn't DO any. Haha. We
did calculations. I've never really understood calculations through Standard
Grade, lets hope I get them this time round eh? Maths.. Maths was shit. Floating somewhere between the first line of
working and the answer I got from the back of the book. Really wasn't
understanding things. Neither was anyone else. Hmm... Does that not point to the
quality of TEACHING? Rather than the quality of the pupil's
learning?
Computing. Muchos samos. Just doing VB. Yum.
English - Same old. Questions from WH. She took them in today though. Oh
joy, wonder if she's one of those teachers that puts lots of red pen on your
work. Like Mr Onal. He either filled the page with his red pen, or his put one
tick. Nothing in between, ever. All or nothing. I have a feeling she's a strict
marker. And I really didn't do much effort for those questions. But oh well. I
will do some over the weekend.
Biology - Not really heard anything about the
situation there. But I still fail to see how they can chuck people out. If
they're failing Nabs or showing a complete lack of commitment then yeah, chuck
them out. Don't pick random people to ditch. That's totally unfair. Biology
today was pretty samey. Questions out the book. Which I love. I'm weird. I like
to write. And I like to draw things in the middle of notes, I remember things by
my bad drawings.
Weekend. Finally. I've actually done a large
portion of my homework tonight. I know I know Friday nights mean relaxing and
not working. But I was in a homework mood! I will finish the rest tomorrow and
then Sunday I can relax. Hopefully. I may have other 'work' to do as well. And I
think my grandparents are over on Sunday so I guess I have to get the whole
'well-done-for-passing-exams' thing. And I think we're going out for a meal or
something.
Rant of the day? Well I don't think I have a rant.
Surprising yes. I'm happy. It's Friday. I love Friday. I want him to
come online though.
8/24/2006 Less than a week?Today was no better. English was first and it
sucked. It's too boring. I don't even remember if I fell asleep or not. And
chemistry. We fucked up another experiment. We so can't do experiments. We
ALWAYS mess them up. (That's Rachel and Josh and I by the way.) We're bad
scientists.
Double biology. Well I'll get onto that in a
minute! Just you wait! There's a rant-and-a-half coming! Moving on... Double
maths. Why on earth do I get less work done in a double period than I do in just
one period. We don't understand maths. We don't like the teacher. Hmm..
Okay. Rant. Biology. For starters - There's
something like 30 people in my Higher Biology class. There's only allowed to be
20. You do the maths. 10 people are going to have to go. So Mrs Ritchie picks a
random bunch of us (including me) to go sit in another classroom and do textbook
work. Now I have no problem sitting reading, writing and doing questions out of
a book. I actually like it. I learn it. I learn it far better than sitting in a
class where I have to listen to the teacher yelling at Neds because they won't
stop talking and work.
But I gets to this class and the teacher (Miss
Wilson) tells us that she doesn't know how long she will have the class. So we
might get ditched. I think this is utterly unfair. Why the heck am I in this
'to-be-ditched' class? I got straight 1's! Why the heck is the thickos allowed
to stay in Biology. That's crazy. I need five B's in one sitting. If they kick
me out of Biology I am going to scream 'til they let me back in. I will happily
teach myself Biology.
Hell, I didn't have a proper teacher all through
Standard Grade and I passed. Teaching myself. So how hard can it be. If they
move me to a different subject, I shall sit in that subject and write out of a
Biology book. I don't care if it's Latin I get put in. I think it's ridiculous.
And the way the headteacher is dealing with it is just stupid.
</rant> Thankyou.
I have a million questions for English to do. So
I'm going to stay up 'til I've done that. Peace. (What fucking
peace?)
[Published by Sammi from sammi@sammi22.com] 8/23/2006 Fanny HillWednesdys aways were crap days. Today was no exception. I started off today with little sleep, so I guess it was destined to be a shite day. I wasn't feeling well last night. Still not. Hate Wednesdays. Maths first period. Ms Bush was in her usual swingy mood. Like where she's all nicey nicey one minute then she turns round and ROARS at someone. Scary. And very unpredictable.
Computing. What the heck happened in computing? I don't even remember. I think we looked at Mr Q's emails. By accident of course. English. Was boring. Almost fell asleep again. Whaaaaaaaat........? The class is silent and you can hide behind Wuthering Heights and pretend to be reading. Chemistry was also boring. Oh, but when Rachel and I were doing the experiment, something happened and the whole bottom fell out the beaker. Boiling water everywhere. Ooooh it was scary. Bunsen burners made weird noises when wet!
Oh, the highlight of the day. PD. "Personal Development" they're calling it. Every 5th and 6th year gets the last two periods on a Wednesday to do this. I picked Games Development. On the computer. I thought I would be able to sit and design some graphics and muck about on a computer. ("Remember, this is fun.") But nooooo. Mr Fartarse talked for TWO HOURS! About nothing really. About this motorcycle racing game. Urg. I was almost dead with boredum.
Rant of the day? When you're sitting having a conversation with someone, and someone else butts in and starts talking to the person you were initially talking to. So you're left sitting there like a complete asshole. Know what's even more annoying than that? When he does it again... And again... And again. So you're left feeling completely fucking STUPID and end up leaving the situation altogether. I give in.
I would rant about the volume of homework one gets when they take five highers. But I won't. I picked the five highers therefore I should suffer the consequesnces. Homework for every subject. Every day. That's not fun. I never get it finished. I have some life outside of school work.
Computing exam is the day after my birthday. Wahey I get to study my favourite subject on my birthday. Bad thing? Chemistry is the day after the computing. Therefore I'd better donate some of my birthday to studying chemistry. And that won't be fun. Can't I postpone my birthday this year? Just three days later please?
I hate school. I hate work. I REALLY want to fast forward life. I CAN'T WAIT TO MOVE!
8/22/2006 I hateSchool. Today sucked. Computing was alright I guess. Seeing as I understand computing. It's the only bloody thing I get properly. Chemistry was so boring. We did this shitty experiment where nothing much happened. Got a textbook that we have to carry about with us. What fun. I hate chemistry. Then maths. Didn't do any work. We had the big-butt teacher today, she's alright. I haven't really decided if I like her or not yet.
PSE. Was shite. I mean what the fuck is the point in that class? We had to figure out what item from a list we would most want with us in a desert. We all said water. The answer was an effing mirror! Stupid. And the captain thing. To be 5th year captain you had to fill in a form explaining why you'd be good for the post. So I spent ages making it sound really good. Y'know what? It doesn't matter a fuck. It's the class that decides. So it's obviously going to just be the most popular person. How stupid is that? Never mind the people who put in any effort. That annoys me. I don't have a chance because I'm not a ned. Stupid.
Double English. Almost unbearable. Reading Wurthering Heights. She's checking the questions. So I'm gonna have to actually read this damn book and actually do some work. Fun.
Yeah and know what else pisses me off? People that yell abuse at me because I go home for lunch myself. I can't stay in school. Where the fuck else am I meant to go. No, I don't have any friends, is that affecting you? What am I looking at - I'm looking at you. Why don't I get a life - Because I need to have grades to get into uni in America, and when I do, I'll have a life. You know why I'll have a life? Because I'll be away from this complete and utter shithole with YOU in it.
Sorry, I'm so pissed off today. I'm just sick of everything. I just want to get out of here and get away from the people here. I hate it. Yeah, I used to like it.
If I lay here
If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Snow Patrol. Anyway. I'm going to be happy. *Forces smiles* only like 240 days of school left. I want to count stars tonight. 8/21/2006 School.Sucks. Double computing was good. Because I now FINALLY understand binary. I've never understood it through standard grade. Wahey! Achievement of the day. Oh, I also beat my little cousin in the exams. We've been like EXACT same grades all through the year but I got a 1 in English Writing in the end. God knows how. Everyone seems to have done pretty well in exams actually. Well dones!
I gave people prezzies from Florida today. Just because i'm kind. No other reason! I'm just a kind person. Oh, and it's 44 days 'til Florida now. Yay! Nicole's going at the same time as me. But she's not staying in the same hotel.
Biology, I wrote a lot! I'm determined to pass the subject though. I need to pass it. I don't plan on resitting it in 6th year. I won't be here. Oh, yeah. Im planning a move to America next year. Because I hate it here. I told people today. I don't think anyone really minds to be honest. Some people will be glad. I just hate this country and most of the time I'm miserable in it, so I'm moving to the US, because I love it there. Shall tell more when I know more!
English - Actually didn't get in shit for not having read the book. Got 'til Friday. Wahey! i'll read it Thursday night! I honestly didn't have time this evening because I had bio and computing homework. Promise! And no, I didn't study maths like I said I would. Haha. Study maths. Who studies maths these days?!
Talking of maths - did zilch work but found out about a dodgy caravan with a hole in the toilet and only 1 wheel. Random crap. Maths is never a working period is it? Pointless shitty subject anyway.
And I keep getting asked! Florida pics! I know I know I will Photobucket them at some point! Promise! I just keep forgetting. I'm gonna maybe add them to the blog anyway, will make it more fun to look at maybe.
Going to sleep now. I need to catch up. Didn't sleep last night. 8/20/2006 Sh*tOkay I didn't wake up this morning 'til 2pm. Well I mean this AFTERNOON. What the heck am I going to be like tomorrow morning when I have to get up at 6 for school. Yuck! I have finished the Florida blog and it can be viewed here. I'm now off to clean out the smelly piggies and get somewhat organised for school. Florida & Jet LaggednessEvening all. It's 2am. I've been up for more than 38 hours. Woah. I'm not writing much. I'm going to sleep. But we arrived home safely and my piggies are all glad to see me. I'm glad to see my computer. Speak to my friends again. God have I missed certain people. They know who they are. I'm in the process of typing up the Florida blog. It can be seen in all its unfinished, unedited glory here. Enjoy. Don't blame me if it's a mess. I haven't proof read it or run it through a spellchecker. And it's half finished. I might even add some pics in later. But for now it's bedtime. Goodnight all.
P.S - That's me and Herman Li. He's awesome. 8/8/2006 Results & Camera!Know that film - Beaches? It's got Bette Midler in it. It's sooooooo sad! Almost as sad as The Lion King! I was bawling my eyes out last night watching it! I cry at everything but that one really got to me. Maybe it's because it's about two best friends. Perhaps I should go die eh?
Anyway, this morning. The results and the camera both came at the same time! So I had this big horrible dialemma as to what to open first. I chose the camera. :D Because the batteries had to be charged up before I used it. Then I opened the results. I was slightly... Stunned. I got eight one's! How the heck I managed that without studying I have noooo idea! *Pats self on back*
I called my Mummy to tell her and she's all pleased, and I called my boss to tell her as well, because she insisted I tell her my results. She was pleased.
Oh, the camera. Oh it's so lovely and sexy and just amazing! It takes really good videos as well. Picture quality is GREAT! And the continuous shooting is SOOOO FUN! I love it! <3333 I have been taking random pics of mysef all day.
Then I went for the waxing. Which really wasn't that bad to be perfectly honest. Okay it hurt but it was alright. Some bits hurt more than others - I won't go into detail there!!!! Wahey though! Proved my Mother wrong. She said I was too chicken and guess what? I'M SO NOT! I'd go back, definetly!
I really need to pack hand luggage. What do I need to take in hand luggage? (Is talking to self over the internet now... She's gone mad.)
- Cameras
- Batteries
- Chargers
- Ipod & Charger
- CD Player for Ben
- CDs
- Phone
- Nutella... Er! I mean a nice healthy salad. :D
- Wuthering fucking Heights
- Something to take notes on for English
Hmmm what else do I need to do tonight for holidays?
- Write down adresses of people I'm sending postcards to.
- Put songs on Ipod and Mum's MP3 player.
- Get CDs for Ben.
- Remember to pack straighteners.
- Charge all batteries I can find.
- Label the pet food for Grandma.
- Pack hairbrush and toothbrush and stuff like that.
I'm gonna miss some people a lot! I don't know if I'll get on a 'puter over there. But if I do I'll email you!
8/7/2006 Good Morning, it's 2pm.Today was my last day at work. Today was the best day I think. I finished unpacking the delivery in the stationary cupboard, and put it all away nice and neatly. My boss had orgasms when she saw that the cupboard was actually tidy for once! Ha! I like tidying mmkay? Then I went back up to the office and sent out a few letters to secretarys and doctors. Then low and behold - I get to answer the phone in the afternoon! WAHEY! Oh, and I was working on the computer too. I could well do that! I have decided I do not want to do filing as a career! I wouldn't mind answering a phone, or typing up stuff. That would be okay. Filing is just too boring.
Oh oh oh tomorrow is gonna be BIG. First off the exam results. No comment. I won't say anything about them 'til I've got them because I don't know how I did so there's really no sense going on about it. It's not gonna make me pass Maths. And then my camera is coming. I have SO annoyed the people I bought it off of, I've been Skype-ing them all day! And I called a few times too, just to make ABSOLUTE sure my camera was dispatched today, and it is guaranteed to be here before 1pm tomorrow! YUSS! Then I'm going for my torture session. (Haha.)
And of course I need to get completely organised for Florida tomorrow! I havn't packed hand luggage yet! I need to burn CDs for my brother, and pack sweeties. And put songs on my Ipod without having a verbal war with Itunes. Then I'm gonna go to bed early and TRY and sleep. Haha. Fat chance!
Know what's annoyed me today? Hmm.. How can I phrase this. Boy1 hates Girl 1. Girl 1 hates the fact that Boy 1 hates her, but she doesn't hate HIM. So she avoids him. Because she gets very upset about the whole thing. So then Boy 2 and Girl 2 turn up and try to set up Girl 1. They try to make Girl 1 talk to Boy 1. Which pissed off Girl 1. Because why the fuck would Girl 1 want to talk to someone who hates her? And why would Boy 1 want to speak to a girl he hates? In fact, why did Girl 2 and Boy 2 ever get involved?! Girl 1 hurts enough mmkay? Don't make it any worse.
I just want to be happy. I want to get okay exam results, my camera and then go off to Florida in a happy mood. I've pissed off people (well not people... More like... Person) lately because I've been in such a shite depressed mood. And I'm sorry. I really am. I don't mean to take things out on you. I know you're only being there for me and I do appreciate it, very much so. I really don't need anyone else hating me. I want to be happy. Or at least happy-ER than I am at this point in time. I'm sorry again and I love you.
There's a girl in my mirror. I wonder who she is.. 8/6/2006 TonightToday was pretty okay actually. I slept in. Felt ill. Was sick. Then we went shopping, to get pet stuffs and a charger for my Ipod. Bought that and figured out which plug is American. Then went to McD's. And I didn't eat anything 'cause I wasn't feeling well. Nothing to do with my alcoholism of course. Why red wine though? I'm supposed to be addicted to Vodka or Buckfast or something. But nahhhhh I just have to be classy and get a taste for wine. What a gimp.
Then I cleaned my kitchen and room, and then met up with Jennifer, Rob, Josh and William. And then we got Debbie and Helyn. We went for a wander to get Rob ice cream, then went to the park. Where I learned alot about... Well... Men stuff. And Rob got in a small fight with a Ned. Which I have to say was hilarious!
Gotta go to bed. I'm sleepeh. Last day of work tomorrow though. Yuss. Then Tuesday to get all ready. And get my camera! OMG! Oh yeah, exam results too. Which i don't care about. I WANT MY CAMERAWR! <333333
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine Theres pictures of you and I on the walls around me the way that it was and should have been surrounds me I'll never get over you walkin' away Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain To hell with my pride Let it fall like rain, from my eyes Tonight I wanna cry. Would it help if i turned a sad song on "All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain To hell with my pride Let it fall like rain, from my eyes Tonight I wanna cry. Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain To hell with this pride Let it fall like rain, from my eyes Tonight I wanna cry. 8/5/2006 CAMERAWRI am so pissed off today. I wanted to buy a digital camera for Florida. That's why I was working. And my Father won't let me buy one. I'm spending MY wages on a camera for ME. I just need a credit card to buy online. I'd pay him back. He thinks I'm ungrateful. What the fuck? I work. I spend my wages. I'm grateful... TO MYSELF! Fucking prick. So yeah, now I feel like I worked for fucking nothing.
Scratch that. After explaining to Daddy that I'll have another few hundred in my next wages and finding a place that will sell it cheap(ish) and will deliver. Fucking YUSS! 9 Million pixels! SEX! I chatted up the dude who owns the shop, and he let me have next day courier delivery for FREE! Wahey! Can't wait. I'm in love (again.)
Yum. Mum's taking the old camera with us as well. So we can take pics of each other. I'm having my new sexfulness camera though. Oh, yeah. Apologies to Mark because I was in a crap mood last night and I think I pissed him off. And I just thought I'd mention him 'cause I love him alot! And although he'd never admit it, he wanted a mention. ;) <3 Well today, I packed stuff, and then made new bases for the pigglies. And bathed them. That was fun, it's always fun putting a rabbit in a bath. Rabbits HATE water! Hehe. I got soaked. Clipped the nails. Except Peter because he's fallen out with me for bathing him. I went out tonight with Josh and Jennifer and Hannah. And Rob came too, I haven't seen him in ages! I've been missing him! And he's dyed his fringe blue and I think it's sooo cool! We just wandered about and ate chippy and talked and stuff. It was really fun! I miss being out with friends. Well... him. Notice me, take my hand. Why are we strangers when our love is strong? Why carry on without me? I make believe that you are here, it's the only way I see clear. What have I done? You seem to move on easy. I may have made it rain. Please frogive me. My weakness caused you pain, and this song's my sorry. At night I pray that soon your face will fade away. Everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings, I feel so small. I guess I need you baby. And everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face - it's haunting me. I guess I need you baby. 8/4/2006 SOS CreamcakesHappy Friday! Today was really quite eventful. First of all, one of my work colleagues was in tears because her daughter has serious neve problems and was put on a 6 month waiting list for an MRI scan, and she's been waiting a month or so, ans she found out today via word of mouth that her scan has been cancelled without telling her! She was mad! So we had to calm her down, her daughter is getting the scan now.
Then we realise our office radio is missing, so we assume it's been stolen, and wonder why someone would steal a petty little radio when there's brand new Dells in the office. My boss called and reported it and was just about to fill in a lengthy IR form, when the girl from a few offices along turns up with the radio. Apparently someone in her office was working late and needed a radio on to keep them awake while they were typing. We were a bit annoyed that she didn't leave a note or anything, but an hour or so later she came back with a box of cream cakes as an apology for 'borrowing' the radio! Yum!
After cakes, I was down in the stationary cupboard clearing up ready for an order coming in. So I was busy putting stuff away and the delivery guy arrives, explains that the last order was messed up so this is a double order. So I just got on with putting stuff away and let him bring all the boxes in. I turn round to see floor to ceiling boxes! I was trapped! It was really rather funny! I had to put a lot of it away before I could get out! I was in there for the rest of the day filing stuff where it's meant to be etc. And dancing to Britney Spears.
Oh, and also did a questionairre for Mr Serco Dude. I'm like the only person that's filled in his little questionairre. Management are evidently too well paid to be arsed with a questionairre! There was a prize draw so I thought I'd better do it!
Getting more excited about Florida now! I'm actually picking out shopping malls that I want to visit! We're going to the hotel to check in after we get there and going straight shopping! Because i need a bikini! That fits me! Oh yes, I also need a boob job. Better save up for that though. 8/3/2006 If I was a rich gurl...... Na na na na na na nahhhhhh...
I got paid today. So I'm going out at the weekend to buy myself a digital camera. And possibly a laptop. Yes I have that much money. NHS pays damn good! Today was rather... Fun. Actually. I was down in the magical world called the stationary cupboard. Doing my Mother's old job of sorting it out. No idea how much stationary a hospital uses! They have a different form for bloody everything! You take a shit and there's gotta be a 7 page form filled out.
And guess what? This time next week... I will be in Margaritaville! WAHEY! And noone knows what i'm talking about... It's a restaurant in Florida. Woop! Can't wait for that. OMGGGGGGGGGGGG!
Oh oh oh and happy birthday Dave! He's going to see Jimmy Buffet tonight (and that's what Margaritaville is all about) and I wish him a really great night. Oh oh oh and I hope DJ has a great time too, and doesn't fall asleep too early bless him! Hope they take lots of pictures!
Ooh. Crossroads is a good film. And not just 'cause Britney is hot. It's about a friendship that breaks up, but then they come together again and are happy in the end and achieve their dreams. It has it's sad bits but it's overall about lasting friendships. And how friendships can break up and it seems like you will never be friends with someone again, then somehow you end up best friends again.. It's also about hopes and dreams. Hmm.. I used to think, that I had the answers to everything. Mhm. But now I know that life doesn't always go my way. Yeah. Feels like I'm caught in the middle. And that's when I realise I'm not a girl, not yet a woman. All I need is time, a moment that is mine, while I'm in between. I'm not a girl. There is no need to protect me, it's time that I learned up to face up to this on my own. Ohh. I've seen so much more than you know now, so don't tell me to shut my eyes.I'm not a girl but if you look at me closely you will see it in my eyes - this girl always finds her way. I'm not a girl, so don't tell me what to believe. I'm not yet a woman, I'm trying to find the woman in me. I just need time. Not a girl, not yet a woman. P.S - Wishing on stars doesn't work. 8/2/2006 HmmGod knows why this won't publish from my email address. I think it's cause of the change from MSN to Live.
About Windows Live Spaces. Noticed the change? I kinda like it. It's a little bit classier. I kinda messed up my custom HTML though. So I'm all in plain grey/silver. But that's kinda classy for a professional blogger like myself. I like the fact MSN have made it so much easier to subscribe to the blog via the RSS feed. Because most people haven't a clue what that little orange button really does. Go click it and find out!
Today was alright, wasn't quite so quiet in the office today seeing as Liz was back. She's a bit of a blether and she knows it. I've not really been doing an awful lot, farting about in the filing cupboard. I've got through a lot and filled a big "to be destroyed" box. And it's really not bad.
Question -- Should I work on Monday and Tuesday next week? Extra money. But I get exam results on the Tuesday and of course Florida on Wednesday. So perhaps I should have those days off to prepare.
OMGOMGOMG! This time next week I will be on a plane, approaching America! Lyk omgz!!1one! Slightly hypo there! Haha! |
|
|
